I didn’t believe healing was possible
I wanted someone to save me…
Dear brave reader,
There was a time in my life when I felt completely lost. Trapped on a relentless hamster wheel of self-loathing, shame, and blame, I questioned whether freedom from my past was even possible. In fact, I believed it was impossible. I spent years disconnected from myself, carrying the weight of my trauma, and believing that the answers lay somewhere outside of me. I wanted someone to tell me how to fix the brokenness I felt - to save me from my inner world of torment.
Perhaps you feel this way too—a constant ache for peace, freedom, and relief, yet unsure how to step off the cycle that keeps you stuck.
I see you because I was there too.
For so long, I wore a mask, hiding the pain and the parts of myself I thought were unworthy. We’re so good at not showing the world the pain we harbour inside. I blamed myself, carried guilt that was never mine to hold, and felt trapped in my own mental prison. But deep within, I longed for something more—a connection to who I really was, without what my trauma told me I was.
My journey shifted when I realised this truth: healing doesn’t come from looking outside ourselves. It comes from within—from reconnecting with the body, the core of who we are, and the inner child that still carries unmet needs. It’s through embodiment that I found the peace, freedom, and joy I thought were lost to me forever. Embodiment is walking the path - not just reading the books and podcasts, but actually asking myself how I could free myself using the knowledge.
From Trauma to Possibility
Through this process, I discovered:
How to release shame, guilt, and self-blame by recognising they never belonged to me.
How to reconnect to my body and identity, transforming it from a source of pain to a source of power.
Tools, knowledge, and practices that grounded me in my healing, allowing me to cultivate self-awareness, self-compassion, and inner peace. It took a long time but I can genuinely say that I now love myself. It didn’t happen overnight.
Healing takes as long as it takes (frustrating, I know) but there isn’t a final destination that we reach with the medal of “healed”. Healing is a verb. A daily commitment and action - choosing yourself every time.
No-one could save me - I could only save myself with the conscious choice to rewrite my future. To heal my past. To send nurturance to the past version of me I was hating everyday for what I didn’t do to stop it. For what I could have done differently.
Now, I live in alignment with my truth and core identity. I’ve learned to embrace who I am, free from the shackles of my past. And more than that, I’ve found my passion: supporting others to express their truth and discover their freedom.
The path of how to get from ‘Where You Are to Where You Want to Be’
The journey from where you are now—feeling lost, overwhelmed, or disconnected—to where you want to be is not about “fixing” yourself. You are not broken. It’s about remembering, reconnecting, and discovering the parts of you that are already whole. When you were born, no matter the circumstance you were born into, you were a beautifully imperfectly whole human.
I continue to walk alongside you, still on my own healing path. I’ve been there in the space of impossibility. I know the terrain, and I know the courage it takes to make this leap. And I want to remind you: freedom is possible for you, too. You are worthy of it. Be your own saviour.
In my next email, I’ll share some of the tools and practices that helped me reconnect with my body, reclaim my identity, and release the grip of shame and guilt. For now, I invite you to take a moment to ask yourself:
What would my life feel like if I believed freedom from my trauma was possible?
What would my life feel like if I could let go of the blame, shame and self-loathing?
I’d love to hear your reflections or if anything resonated from my words. You can reply and share with me if you wish.
Until then, take care of yourself. Healing is a non-linear process that is constantly unravelling, and you are exactly where you need to be, for what you are ready to witness. Be patient. Be gentle.
With love,
Stacie x